Time is such a precious commodity. God has a way of demonstrating different things to me with each new phase of my development. See I wasted a lot of time in my life, because of this I am in a state of constant fast forward right now. I wake up each morning and look at the day ahead of me and wonder if I can possibly accomplish all of the mandatory things that are before me.
I work 35 hours per week, go to school 9 hours per week (add at least 10 hours to that for studying and homework). I take the kids to the west side for school every day. I come home and get ready to head to the east side for work by 10am. I am a server so I run laps in a restaurant and am cheerful and courteous all the time…even if my customers are not. I leave by 3pm and head to the west side to round up the kids and bring them home. On Mondays we head to Celebrate Recovery where thankfully we get one of our two family meals per week. Tuesday I do the kids, work, kid’s combo then head to Human Services class. Wednesday is kids, work, kids, Sociology. Thursday is kids, work, kids, Algebra. Friday is kids, work, kids…back to work. I work doubles on Fridays. Saturday is 8 loads of laundry at the laundry mat and a long 3-12 pm shift at work. Sunday blessed Sunday all I have is church where I take care of the kids. I love the kids but it is definitely not like having a day off. I get to kiss my kids goodnight on Sunday and Monday. I didn’t add in appointments and groceries but I think you get the point!
Here is MY reality check. A few years ago all I had was time. I didn’t have the privilege of freedom, much less kids, work, and school.
It will be worth it!
When we moved into my apartment a year ago we had a mattress (on the floor) and two bags of clothes. Laundry day was easy because we had nothing. My Daughter only spent the night two nights per week. Nobody needed me for much of anything, I was broken and damaged. God placed a dream in my heart to get well, get an education and share with others how I did it. Each and every “hassle” in my life is a privilege. My life was empty and meaningless and now I am everything to a few people that need me. Sometimes I wonder if I can handle my blessings. Then I remember that God started this work in me and He will be faithful to complete it. He will never give me more than I can handle although I thinks He thinks too highly of me sometimes.
I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.
-Romans 7:18
I keep reminding myself that I can do it because He is never wrong!
Is God pushing you to do something?
Do you feel that nagging pull?
Might as well stop fighting Him and do it. It won’t always be easy but I guarantee it will be worth it!
Marie Johnson